“To be love and mercy in the Heart of My Church… That is what you are to be.”
I am Sarina: Beloved daughter, sister, bride of Christ, and pilgrim.
For years I have pondered the question with Our Lord, “Jesus, who am I to be? What place do I have in Your Church?”. The response is always the same: “be love and mercy in the Heart of My Church.” This has become my personal mission; to become what it is that I have so graciously received from Our Savior, Jesus Christ, and to give to others what He bought for me: freedom and salvation.
Ever since I could remember, I had a thrill for wild adventures, a compassionate love for all people, and a mysterious draw to intimacy with the Most Holy Trinity in prayer. As a little girl, the reality of God’s kingdom was so real to me - the Saints walking among me, God’s love guiding me, the Angels peckering me with kisses. I felt like I lived in the Garden of Eden: full of joy and freedom, walking side by side with Jesus.
As I grew older, Satan began to tear me away from that “garden” piece by piece. More and more I began to wander and grew enslaved to a kingdom of darkness. Interiorly, I was aching for Jesus to come and save me, thirsting to be made whole again, and desperate for love to make me new. I went on a search for God, but in all the wrong places.
Then one day, towards the end of my junior year of college, Jesus rescued me from my despair and distress. He came and He found me; as I had been searching for Him for so long. From then on, we took the ultimate journey deep into my heart, exploring all of the places that Satan had stolen and reclaiming it as Jesus’ dwelling place. He walked with me into the tombs of my heart, the wreckage of the garden that once was, and resurrected me; making me new. Out of gratitude for this mercy Jesus had given me during my years in college, I said yes to being a Fellowship of Catholic University (FOCUS) missionary and served at the University of Nebraska-Lincoln from 2019-2021. Throughout that time, I was able to walk with countless souls who were encountering the deep healing, freedom, and joy of knowing Jesus’ mercy. After those years, I followed the Lord’s prompting to sell all I had, book a one-way ticket to Europe with no plans, and live solely off of Providence. I realized that my whole life had been a pilgrimage to find Jesus again, that I had been wandering in search of His Kingdom. But in reality, He had always been with me in my heart.
No matter where I would go in life, My King always reigned in the Kingdom of my heart. When this truth pierced me to the core, my eyes were opened and my heart sang the words of Song of Songs “I had found Him whom my soul loves.” On November 1, 2022, I made a private vow of chastity to Jesus Christ, binding the entirety of my heart, mind, body, soul, and strength to Him here on earth. I am in the beginning of living His unique call for me to be His bride in this world and give myself as a mother to His children. Having spent time working at Our Lady of Good Counsel Retreat House, delving into my Graduate studies, and living a life of deep prayer; God has continued to form me in the particular ways He is inviting me to be a gift for His Church and has thus formed the start of this new Apostolate, Kingdom Come. My desire is to become one with Him in His love and mercy and invite people into the greatest pilgrimage of their life: a journey to the Heavenly Kingdom of God.
a call to spiritual motherhood
“But child, you are not yet in your homeland; so go, fortified by My grace, and fight for My kingdom in human souls; fight as a king’s child would; and remember that the days of your exile will pass quickly, and with them the possibility of earning merit for heaven. I expect from you, My child, a great number of souls who will glorify My mercy for all eternity.”
Jesus to Faustina, Diary of St. Faustina, 1489
Formation
BS in Strategic Communication with emphasis in Public Relations, International Communications minor | Northern Arizona University, 2019
Fellowship of Catholic University Students (FOCUS) | UNL, 2019-2021
MA in Applied Catholic Theology | University of Mary, April 2024
Spiritual Direction certificate | University of Mary, April 2024
Encounter School of Ministry | May 2024
Covenant School of Spiritual Direction | Anticipated graduation September 2026
Patroness:
Mary, the Immaculate Conception
“Through you, Immaculate Virgin, the life we had lost was returned to us.
You received a child from heaven, and brought forth to the world a Saviour.”
Liturgy of the Hours,
Memorial of the Blessed Virgin Mary on Saturday